You sleep, you wake. You exercise, You work. You’re happy, you’re sad. You’re productive or you’re lazy. Some days you contentedly sit in the middle, numb, unexcited, and unwilling to instigate adventure. This is just the way of the world, this is how life exists as a human.
Sometimes life offers ecstasy gems, not in the form of drugs, but real highs of emotional state, where your heart swells like a hot air balloon and you find yourself never wanting to come back down. Moments of pure elation: a sight so beautiful that you feel the familiar prick of tears that you have to bite back and hide, a word or phrase that tumbles from someone’s mouth that changes everything, or even when your waiter brings out the food you’ve been salivating about for the past half an hour.
In the same way life offers these incredible highs it also presents us with terrible lows. Heart sinking, gut-wrenching lows that have you questioning “why me?” on a miserable Sunday afternoon in the middle of April.
Life offers questions and a multitude of pathways which each and every one of you has the opportunity to explore, only there are no reruns, no restarting at the last checkpoint. It makes making life changing decisions almost impossible to make, offers pathways in such a cryptic manner that you cannot possibly determine which is a success and which is a failure. It becomes understandable why people fall victim to anxiety attacks and why some people believe that they cannot change their circumstances for fear of catastrophic failure.
Watching from an outsider’s perspective, it becomes easier to instruct people what to do, which path to take but this is not always flawless. Sometimes you get too close, empathise with the misery and lead people down a path to immediate elation, soon to fizzle out and die like a sparkler on firework night.
What you don’t seem to grasp is the concept of life. It is not about how long you can maintain a high, or how long you can stay above the lows, but rather a range of experiences, of emotions and moments which should be explored to their fullest.
Life is not about how many things you have or how happy you have been but how much you have experienced.